This letter was written by a person incarcerated at Kern Valley.
In November of 2019, I went out to court in Orange County. When I got back to prison, I got so sick and thought I was going to die, refusing medical. I just wanted it to be all over, that I would go to sleep and not wake up. How I wished that would had happen.
After all, who wants to die in prison? And who wants to spend the rest of their lives in prison.
I’ve come to terms with myself, and have accepted the fact that prison is where I’ll die. But anyways, after the months of being so sick, I finally found out through lab work that I had come in contact with COVID. As I reflect back and look at all the beautiful folks that lost their lives really saddens me.
It’s been crazy here in prison during this pandemic, so much has changed and wonder if we will ever get back to normalcy. Even though I had COVID, I still took the vaccine because I am at a higher risk than most people due to my age medical problems. Even when they come around asking if I wanna get tested, I never refuse. I’d rather be safe than sorry.
Just last week they started contact visiting, and it sucks. I don’t get visits, but I hear it all the time, they get one hour contact on Saturdays and one half hour on video on Sundays. No food, two bottles of water and that’s it. I feel for those families who travel hundreds of miles only to give their love ones one hug at the beginning and one hug at the end.
That’s what they get for one hour. That breaks my heart.
